Preparing for a move to Los Angeles is no small feat. I have a a lot of stuff I have to sell off. I can't really go out anymore without feeling guilty for spending a few bucks that I need for the move. I still have to figure out how to get the AC in my car fixed. I still have to figure out the route to go. I still have to book the Marriot rooms, thanks to my awesome parents and the sweet system of Marriot Rewards Points. I still have to do so many things.
I also still have to ignore the constant questioning of the skeptics.
I recently met an actress who has been around the block a few times after one of the V/H/S screenings. I approached her and introduced myself. Her demeanor, composed yet stiff, seemed colder than the occasion called for. I couldn't help but feel the familiar sensation that this woman was sizing me up.
"So," she began after we had exhausted chit-chat about the film, "What's next for you?"
"I'm moving to Los Angeles."
She raised her eyebrows and asked, in a tone that indicated she was clearly talking down to me,
"Mind if I ask why?"
"Because I'm serious about doing this and that's where I need to go."
"I strongly encourage you to reconsider," she responded dryly, "I was in LA for about six years. It's rough. I had to come back."
"Yeah?" I asked, my interest fading.
"Unless you can still play young. Then maybe. Can you play young?"
"Sure."
She looked at me skeptically.
"Are you SAG?"
"Nope," I replied.
"I mean," she paused, "I wish you nothing but luck, but -"
I can't recall the rest because I stopped listening. I have heard this spiel one hundred times and then some.
People see a young woman who realizes what she needs to do to further her career and instantly want to discourage her because they tried it and they didn't make it work. I am sick and tired of listening to actors bash and bring each other down because they still maintain a crippling amount of bitterness over their own failures. Men and women alike have told me to wait in Georgia like a sitting duck and cross my fingers that the casting trickle-down effect will give me a nipple to suck on long enough to maybe get a SAG-AFTRA eligibility form.
Rest assured, everyone: I'm not going out there and expecting miracles. I know it will be hard. I know it's going to suck for a while. I know that I am going to have to work very hard. I know that I'm going to have to be clever if I want to get Taft Hartley'd. I know that I may ultimately decide to come back home. The best part about that, though, is that Atlanta isn't exactly going anywhere.
Here's the thing about LA: It's not impossible; it's just really, really hard. I can do something.
The only thing stopping me from doing anything is staying here.
I am so psyched to have you come to LA, and not just because I'm looking forward to the shark adventures that we're going to have together!
ReplyDeleteYeah, moving is hard and always sucks, but it takes a lot of guts and a lot of drive, and a lot of sacrificing of your dignity. And you're right, Atlanta will always be waiting for you if you decide to come home.
I don't think you will, though. You can definitely make it out here. It may take some time, but you're not one of THOSE who come out here expecting to win an Oscar in six months. You know what you're doing, and you know what to expect, and that's why I think you'll do just fine.
Plus we'll have the flying shark.
Don't let anyone talk you out of doing it. If you don't try, you'll regret it, and regret sucks.
ReplyDeleteListening to bitter old actresses and their advice is like listening to your Grandpa talk about all the dinosaurs he rode to school and all those damn kids sitting on his lawn doing no good. It's just all hot air and eventually they'll be put in an old folks home where all they have to look forward to is bedsores and neglect.
ReplyDeleteYou are a fucking rock star, and jealous bitches don't get it. End of conversation.
ReplyDeleteYou just have to do what you know is right for you, and shrug off the noise -- which is what you are actually doing, so I guess I'm just giving a general fist pump of approval in your direction.
Such an exciting time for you, who knows what will happen! And regardless of what does end up happening, it'd be 100% worth it and meant to be anyway.
ReplyDeleteJust think of life in 6 months time, it's a scary thought, but also an exciting one =)
Stay positive, and keep posting.
(I'm currently still in L.A actually, really loving it here for the time being. Come visit =P)
Good for you, both for following your career in an upward motion *and* for not listening to bitches like that.
ReplyDeleteI saw this several years ago -- not sure if you've seen it -- but Jenna Fischer (Pam from The Office) wrote a great blog post once about her early experiences in Los Angeles. She includes a lot of advice, most of which I'm sure you already know, but here it is: http://www.myspace.com/pambeesley/blog/141657788
you certainly have to follow your dream, and let life take you where you feel it should! no one wants to live with "what if's" go for it, and make your dreams a reality!!
ReplyDeleteThe good news is it's not too hard to get your SAG card. You just need signatures, a good friend of mine got it from just being a perpetual extra.
ReplyDeleteShe needs to tell you it's going to be hard, because wel,, someone has to. But shit, someone has to make it, too. Fuckin try! Do it! Go! Now!
You never regret the things you did only the things you didn't do....
ReplyDeleteOK, there might be a few exceptions such as :-
Running over that Policeman when he tried to stop me for speeding -Although on saying that I would have totally got away if I had run over his partner and all 20 witnesses.....
Sending that large cheque to that Nigerian Prince to help get his money out of the country - Perhaps if I had sent a normal sized cheque he would have paid me the money that he had promised and the cost of the postage would not have bankrupt me....
Complaining that my food was dry in that restaurant last night..... -On the bright side all that spittle moistened it up a treat
Ok...mostly, you never regret the things you do......
I couldn't even act out when I was younger...
ReplyDeleteYou are so talented and amazing and I wish you the best, and I'm mostly just commenting so that when you're famous, I can be like 'look! I commented on her posts way back when!'
@ Nugs: Real talk. You are amazing. I cannot believe how I lucked out
ReplyDeletein meeting you (ish.) I have never been so psyched to write down a new
address in my LIFE. I can tell that we are going to be bros4leif. No
lie. /emo.
@Brian - You are absolutely right. Thanks for being supportive!
@Tristachio - ... With wild wordplay like that, why is it that we
haven't made plans for the girl-com feature that we ARE DESTINED TO DO
ONE DAY?
@Sweeney - Psh, YOU are a rock star. You're smart and pretty and I
want to be just like you. I will take your gesture of return your
goodwill tenfold!
@Aaron - If you're still in LA when I get there, we have to grab
coffee and exchange expectations of our respective great adventures.
@ Park Ave - I just read the blog post for the second time. Thank you so much for showing that to me! So much wonderful, straight forward advice from a female actress who honestly wants to help other actors instead of "hide her secrets." I want to be that gracious. Thank you!
@Fizzgig - Spoken like a true boss.
@Erin - It's so funny when people use the, "Are you even SAG-E?" line on me. No. No. No. I live in Georgia. The answer is going to be no. And the answer will continue to be no until I get the hell out of dodge. If I wanted my life to be easy as pie, then I would have found a rich husband to leech off of by now. People be cray.
@BlackLog - Dude! Remember the 20 witnesses next time!
@HeatherRose - You're hilarious and I'm quite flattered. Thank you for the encouragement!
Wish you all the luck in the world. SoCal is a wonderful smoggy, traffic filled paradise and hope you enjoy your move here! haha. No really. I really do hope you make it so I can do interviews to E! and Biography for your True Hollywood Story/Behind the Music and say "I followed her blog BEFORE...."
ReplyDeleteYou totally need to go! You only live once and if you don't go you will always wonder "what if." Better to try and fail than live with a lifelong regret.
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