I have been dealing with a few things in real life and, as a result, many things fell to the wayside - including my blog and other online endeavors. This malaise grounds itself in reality first, though, and I don't know what else to say other than it can make even the simplest tasks difficult to do.
For those of you who go through periods of feeling this way yet stay active online, you might know how important it is to keep these parts of yourself offline. I sometimes feel like I've mastered the art of convincing anyone who follows me online that I constantly live in a state of: "WAHOO!!!"
Sometimes I do go through spurts of unwarranted feelings of awesomeness! Sometimes they last a really long time.
I have gone through rough periods since I was little. The rough periods don't build an audience; they alienate it. I don't mean to alienate anyone, but rather to explain how I have been feeling and try to vocalize my resolve to never be defeated - even if I feel that way.
I am tired of feeling this way and disappointing myself. I'm not a hopeless person. Even when I go through periods like this, I can see them for what they are and try to stay as grounded and distract myself.
But I can't put the brunt of what it takes to feel better on distractions anymore. Successful people continue to create and work even when they feel like they can't. I have to continue to work through it.
And I will.